it's been so long... way too long but it's okay, everything is still alright.

life is so much happier when u've learnt to let it go of certain unhappy things. sometimes ur definition of happiness shld change. it doesnt really hv to depend on other ppl. it's great when u see others more important than urself. but still, nvr depend and nvr define ur own happiness based on others.

i hv so much to say and so much to explain. but then again, i've ever come across this quote and it says, "nvr explain. real friends dun need it and fake friends wont believe it." i guess by this simple quote, it alr speaks so much. who is true and who is fake?! i guess that's no longer important. maybe some routes, it's really better to walk alone.

this is just a random post cos i've got the feeling to blog tdy. who's knw when's the nxt time? till then, goodbye. xoxo

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

9 hr ago, RITS announced that they will be selling the official merchandise outside singapore indoor stadium on both day. (sat at 3pm and sun at 12pm in the noon). and it's final dicision. meaning, there wont be any changes to it!!! but sad to say, stock will run out if the demand is high :( hopefully, there will hv enough stock for everyone!!! :) definitely i'll make my way down just to queue for the merchandise no matter how long it takes!!! im happy to the max! thankyou RITS! :D

seriously i got very happyyy and surprised when i first saw this piece of gd news! i was praying hard everynight that miracle would happened. indeed, miracle happened. thankyou! a big thankyou to whoever is out there to help and pray for every single night. i rmb that i got extremely upset when i first knw that merchandise not being sell over at the concert. and there's this bitch out there, who's making lots of sacratisc comments! nw the final decision is merchandise will be selling outside the concert hall. so bitch, dun let me see u getting it! and also pls bear in mind that watever that u had said b4, pls make sure that u do it. if not, u really deserve a big tight slap from every single one out there! i believe not only me who is happyyy abt the decision but also the rest of the ELF! so everyone, grab ur chance to get ur merchandise :D

every single one of us hope to be rich/famous. but how many actually manage their dreams to come true? is it because they didn't put in the effort or because they are fated to be that way? is there such things as fate? or does it depend on ur level of trying?take some writers, inventors and scientists for example. how did they manage to discover or write abt wat they think and suddenly become famous?! if they can do it, so can we. among all the famous ppls...i respect JK Rowling the most, the writer who wrote Harry Potter. it's a wonder how she got all the ideas of magic throughout her daily life. and just after an inspiration of hers, she managed to published a sequence of 6 books. i hv read all of them and i hope i'll continue on book 8, which i doubt.

life is so miserable and meaningless.

wouldn't it just end?!

im just hoping that the world would just end.

no more life. cos life sucks!

everyday living in fear. wat's the point of living?!

i've lost everything...

thks Gummy bears, WantoonMee, Laksa etc and

my beloved Star-Twinnyy!

thks u guys for being there for me when im sad.

thks for the advice, console, entertainment.

i love u guys alots... ♥

(im glad i had met u ppls)

hi, im back :)) been coughing this few days like shit. i felt better but the cough is killing me. hmm... this isn't the topic of the day. actually i had a gd dinner wif my aunt, cousins and sis last night. we talked abt anything ; everything. but mostly on family. i hated to talked abt this topic but i had no choice. it's always a torture for me. just whenever ppl start talking or even concern abt me, i'll start crying even if it doesn't hurt that much. idk why. i dun feel like crying but tears just rolled down no matter wat. is not that i scared i'll lose face when i say it out. wat i had been through ; not much ppl will understand. but i really hv to thks those ppls who really care for me.

ohya ; nw its back to me. my aunt say im very rough in my words. i told her i was trained from young ; u knw. i need time to change. so final solutions, get rid of those harsh words. byyyyeeee!

the album, poster and the things inside.

     

closer look at the CD and the other side is the album cover.fantastic album, the cover is metal and a little heavy. but kinda worth it!

im an impatient and a little insecure girl. and at times im a little hard to handle.

im 16th this yr and there's nothing much u could expect from me.

i adore shopping, partying all night long.

im one in a million, i go crazy over silly little things in life.

im a bitch to everyone. 

i act like i dun give a damn because i care too much.

truth is, im out of control easily. im stubborn as hell, i say sorry too much.

this blog is where i would rants all the little little things in my life.

im over analyze the smallest of thing and probably come off as a bitch to simply guard myself.

recently, my shoe fantasy got worst! there're so many pairs of shoes that caught my eye. one from Birkenstock, one from Toms and 2 from Jeffrey Campbell. everything in total cost $300. where am i gonna get that much of money?! this and that caught my eye on the way and the saved up money would be spent again... it's like nvr ending!

Yara-Birkenstock

Retail price: $150 (round up)

Lita-Jeffrey Campbell

Facebook price: $50

Maria Roks-Jeffrey Campbell

Facebook price: $50

Orange-Pink Classic Canvas-Toms

Retail Price: unknown

said to be fake toms, so i wont get it anymore!

dare to dreamsometimes by seeing u, it can turn out ugly eh.
it's like u are born to make me hate u.
well, i just realise becos of u. im turning childish
it looks like im doing all this to help u but in another fact, im just doing all this becos i wan u to understand how much i hate her.
somemore i alr told u b4 that i dun take this kind of jokes.
if u really even understand, all this things wont happen.
the thing is, i cant make u hate the things i dun like.
so, in the end the thing still reflected back to me.
but like i once said to u, dun regret until then eh.

SISTER! hmm... just saw wat u post in ur blog. heh wow post until soooo... I WANNA CRY ALR LAH! hayooo! no need to be so 客气 one lah, wat are sis for? :D wat u say abt me oso reflected back to u. if we didn’t become friend in the first place, i wont be able to make such a gd friend like u and create so much wonderful memories wif u. rmb that we share everything, no lies :D i guess there’s nvr been anyone who makes a impact in my life that big b4. i think i wont be able to forget u...♥ 

LOVE YOU LOTS ♥

♥ 19 days to our one yr :D

♥ 43 days to ur birthday :D

thks for listening to me grumble when im seriously pissed off. thks for accompanying me home every time after tuition. thks for making me laugh when im tired and unhappy and thks for waiting for me in the morning for like so long during the morning last time though i finally understand how it feels to wait for someone so long. there’s just endless things i wanted to tell u.

♥ LOVE YA :))

HAHAHA so not gonna drop ur name down :D

♥ 116 days to ur birthday :D

wow!!! see, i got count one leh! havent been able to catch up wif u! so i gonna do it soon ya. miss going out wif u and talking to u like there’s no tmr. talk to u soon.

AND LOVE YA ♥ :D

well, it nvr change eh. being angry wif u, ended up pissing me off. time cant change the fact that u are born for me to hate. the happier u are, the more i wan that smile from u to disappear.

seriously, i felt inlove wif the shoes up there. it's like outdated type but who cares. i wan that shoe so badly cos it looks sweet and beautiful.

i was just browsing through my msn contacts and i laughed at something i saw.apparently some donkey skin so thick, thinking that im talking abt it in my previous post.i dun think i did mention any names in my previous post, did i?or did it actually thought it was she herself, cos she had let me down in a way or another?!guess she must be guilt stricken or something, if not why would she think it was her? :Ok slut. so if u're thinking that im talking abt u, so be it. u're nvr coming back into our clique.continue being a pessimistic loner cum loser and kindly fuck off from OUR lives.none of us need u and i dun need high blog stats from someone like u.oh yeah, stop being so hypocritical and wearing that fake mask of urs.u mentioned b4 that u dun really hv a gd impression of her, and nw?oops! dun remove ALL ur mask. at least retain the one u wear when u see us.cos ur face's a total turn off and im not sorry to say that. fuck off, bitch! x.x

k, it's has been 123456789 yrs since i last update yeah :Xbut after everything, wat's most important is still money $$$! i hate it when the topic comes. i mean like everyone needs it alot. who dun?! but the worst part is that humans can because of MONEY and it causes so much problems or even troubles. just like my family ; nah im not going to talk abt it of cus. okayyy, i shall stop the topic since i dun like it at all.geez!!! all i think is abt nxt yr ; the yrs ahead. nxt yr 17 and then 18, 19, 20. hmmm... four more days ahead ; well its kind of tired. last time when i was like 11 ; 12 alr, i kept on thinking that i wan to grow up faster and faster. i even think that when i am 18 or 21, life will be better or something. but nw im kind of worried because of some problems. well its kind of tired if u really step into the reality world and all those adult thinking. hell ya!!! those working aunties i see in work place really cannot make it. i really hv no idea wat they are thinking abt. maybe all they think is abt their rice bowl or something but seriously their trick really like shits man. 2 headed snakes at work industry ; ALOT. so ppl, nxt time when u guys work ; dun hv to trust the ppl out there so much. or u urself will get hurt or many other shits. trust me yeahhh :)

i knw that nothing can change the reality. we can only accept wat had alr happened. im not angry but sad. wat hits me was that all the things that ppls had told me was the truth, i really cant imagine it. is this the feeling of  "betrayed"? i hope it's not. i really dk wat to say nxt or wat, i've nothing to say seriously. things are over, even if the fault wasn't me that time but things still happened. i dun care if u hate me, wat hits me was that u had pretended so long. i really dk why must i continue but i just dun bear to see things happened in this way. im not being sarcastic or wat, im just saying out how i feel nw. i had lose everything, really, everything. the most important person, a close sis, wat else nxt? i told u, no matter wat u did, i'll still forgive u. im always be there for u. i wont take back my words. u can always find me if u've troubles, im always here. really, i hate to find out the things that idk. the truth always hurts. i cant stop crying nw. i had hold back my tears from just nw. i knw myself very clearly. i knw wat im doing. i hope u can reflect on urself first, think abt the past. maybe dun think abt the past...will be better, start all over again. i'll still be ur listening ear if u need me. time will heal everything.

LIFE AINT EASY, nothing is. i wonder why i held on, yet i hv no answer. idk wat is happening, i hv no idea wat went wrong. maybe i cause the prob, but idk. i just knw that im dying here, i just dk how long is this gonna continue longer.smiling in the day, crying at night. im not wat werewolf, u knw. i really dk wat next. tiring life, really. i hate MATHS ALOL!!!

insomia. i was super tired when i reached home just nw but yet, im still awake. dun feel like touching phone, homework or any others things, it's boring. just like last wk, till the next day morning then i was able to sleep. but my sleeping time was so less. i just cant sleep for whole day or half a day. it's weird. something's wrong wif my body? crazy. having serious headache recently, i scared that my head will brust anytime. perhaps, im just being paranoid. there are too many things happened nowadays or there's too much things to say. i knw that my posts shall not be a sad post anymore. but i still did it.firstly, i wan to say something to this friend of mine:CSY, must take 100% care. i wan to see u recovering soon. i wan to see u back in SACSS, back to guitar. u cant just give up like this, there's alot of people worrying abt u nw. rmb, we still chat abt where we'll be going after our O/N'levels? it's heartbreaking to hear the bad news from u. last month, we were still chatting during guitar, slacking. whats now? u didn't even appear in sch. u'll recover, for sure. so, dun give up so easily. all of us will support u. i bet alot of ppl wan to see u once again. idk if we'll be able to see each other again but just to tell u this, goodluck for everything, alrights? :)secondly, this matter makes me remind of my grandmother again. how many months alr? 1,2,3,4,5,6...9months. it's alr 9 months, u still wan to continue to live in ur own world? wake up from ur dreamworld, come back to us. i hate everyone, they keep asking me abt the 'if' questions. "wat if she...this or that". it's freaking irritating, i knw that this day will come, i knw. i dun need anyone to tell me wat to do or ask me if I will this or that. i knw they're tired and sick of her, they're giving up. how I wish everything was still a dream, when I wake up, she'll ask me if im hungry all these. i really miss her alot, really. why is it so unfair to these people? wat did they done? they dun deserve it.

为什么该死的人不死？偏偏不该死的却遭遇这种事？为什么这么不公平？

heyys peeps, i hv not been updating my blog for like very long. well, im not in a gd mood currently. i think i had did something wrong, im sorry. i didn't expect things to become this way but it did. sorry, i had told u that u can trust me but yet i did something that causes u to lose trust on me. i cant afford to lose another friendship again. the msg u had sent me makes me feel guilty. and I guess im not a gd friend afterall. no matter wat i did, it's always wrong. cant anyone spare a thought for me?! think of how i feel. but too bad, reality shows it's all my fault, yeah, it is. let's face the reality.andstop telling me there's no hope, as long as she's still alive. i believe miracle will still happen. she wont bear to leave me rite? i need her so badly. wat a bad person i am, i only care abt my own stuff and neglected them. i didn't even give them a call since a few months ago, i didn't even ask abt their recent life. unexpected things are happening day by day. sometimes, i wonder if nxt yr the world will really end, and everyone die. will it be a gd thing for everyone? some ppl will feel relief but some ppl will regret. wat the hell human is thinking? i really dun understand. scary creatures are all over the world.suddenly, i felt stressed. sch works, friends, family, teachers. none of them goes smooth. i knw life will full of ups and downs but sometimes, i really cant take it. im tired seriously. i had planned that 2011, i will be a happy girl. no matter wat happen, i will face it and smile. but i failed to do so. forget it, i'll be back to the happy girl the nxt day, life goes on. i believe that im still counted as the lucky ones than the others rite?  im thinking positive nw, no more negative thinkings.bye, ppls!!!

move on. after the night, after the cry, after my sleep, after thinking hardly... i decided to move on ; i seriously wan to leave those sadness behide and move on. i guess its time to let go. i'll love myself more than anyone else. disappointment by disappointment ; it just nvr stop. i tell myself, im like a fool nw. thinking of LOVE given by others was true enough but in the end its still the same. the hottest love has it coldest end...idk how and wat happened ; in order for me to drop my tears infront of my friends... somehow, im more sensitive. i hope there's no second time, i'll change for the better. i dun wan to bring any sadness wif me along my life wif my friends. i just wan to smile, talk and laugh like how i use to be...while i left wif one more day to be that happy girl. so let me be then, i knw wat im doing :)

i gonna enjoy my BIG DAY wif my friends ♥

friends are not for u to use or treat as maid or wat so ever. we tried our very best to help u and gave u as many advice as we can ; but i think u dun even give a fk care?! nw u are the one who choose this life ; so watever thing that happen, move on and dun regret. dun come back to us cos even how much we said ; u also didn't put it into ur heart. goodluck to u! but seriously ; she'll nvr be the right one for u. dun regret ~

im seriously tired of it, i'll slowly walk away. nw everything in the family is like all my problem like that. i dun think im gd enough to settle all this problems u knw. i hope one day, it'll nvr be my problem again.울고 싶은 기분이 :( 비명을 지르고 싶다 !

im strong outside and weak inside. having a bad headache. sigh!i think no one seriously understands me even those ppl who are seeing me almost everyday. im complicated in many things ; family the most! haiz... nvm im all by myself and i must learn to stand up by myself. everyone are having ups and downs, not only me right.or maybe im just not that strong enough...

disappointed! im seriously DISAPPOINTED wif someone tdy! TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED can! someone whom i trust. damn it wtf forget it. i dun wan to say it anymore ; i feel that it's no point and useless to say it again.so SHORT FORM and CLEAR CUT ; i'll not trust ppl so much alr.rmb wat u do tdy, u may think is a SMALL THING but it meant BIG to me. u can LAUGH at it and think it's FUNNY but it's not actually.because i cant believe that u would do that, u make my mood feel damn DOWN and ANGRY at that point.think for urself lah, if someone do that to u. do u think it'll be FUNNY like how u think?step in to other ppl's shoes and think abt it. u can be cheerful, happy and laugh at times BUT not at all times okay?! and especially when u did the wrong thing.dun tell me, u are still not OLD enough to think?! pls BE MORE MATURE then!if u were not a FRIEND to me, i'll seriously dun feel DISAPPOINTED.but nw wat ; treat ppl as FRIEND and TRUST them so much. end up WAT I GET? SIGH!im not angry with u nw but just DISAPPOINTED that's all.everyone has a limit okay ; u still havent get over my limit. but once its OVER ; u gonna see wat it takes.i can be unreasonable at times ; SCOLD here and there. but at least i show a true part of myself instead of acting kind. at least i knw my attitude well and ppl may hate it. for those who really understands me ; will knw that im actually joking around.i can LAUGH infront of u but actually i hv no mood and upset inside.WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS ABT ME?!i think I would be the only ONE ; i knw myself more than anyone.so i may LOOK terrible and unreasonable or somethings that is NOT GOOD infront of everyone.but at least im changing for the BETTER!
till here, BYE!

hello peeps!

finally im back to blog again!

these days i keep watching animes.

list of anime i watched!

- Kateikyo Hitman Reborn!

- D.Grey-Man- Bleach

- Full Mental Alchemist.

and the list will continue.

maybe?

lol

these days like so bored sia...

nothing to do except 4 studing, doing homework, sms-ing, watching television and playing computer games.

feel like studying but cannot.

wat an excuse.

gotta end here and continue anime-ing le.

BYEBYE :D

`withloves,YunLin ^^

lala, everything is back to normal... i guess or maybe not?things are bothering me again.i knew there was something, it's obvious. but there was nothing that i could do.lots and lots to type but nw brain suddenly cant think of anything. will be back w essay soon :)bye, aliens :D

do u ever get that feeling where u dun wan to talk to anyone? u dun wan to smile and u dun wan to fake being happy but at the same time u dk exactly wat's wrong either, there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if u could wan anything in this world it would be to be alone. ppls hv stopped being comforting and being alone nvr was. at least when u're alone, no one constantly asks u wat's wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take "idk" for an answer. u feel the way u do just because u hope the feeling will pass soon and then u'll be able to be urself again but until then all u can do is wait long long .

sisters, cousins and friends are loved (L)the truth was nothing has been left out, bring me to ur way cos i dun wan to get lost. life is really short and we must learn to treasure every moment of it. life is really full of ups and downs but we face every problems and solve it without any notice. u may just walk away or solve it, it's ur choice for doing anything. being happy makes ur life go through faster and healthy. be urself, love urself and nvr give up urself. that's the way of living.(L) Yun Lin :)

u gave me many advices but some i didn't wanted to get it in my mind. study hard for exams ; learn more new things... wat u said before, i'll rmb it in my heart. i'll nvr forget. it's so sudden, cousin... u left us :( its really hurts in our heart. im wandering where will u go? god brought u away :( and i hate to face the facts. im sorry ; i knw u'll not wanted to see us cry or upset for it. u always wanted everyone that u knw to be happy every single day, uu did ur very best alr. but we still cant...u are always in our heart ; in a unreplaceable

--REST IN PEACE--

wat's the point?

i hv been pondering over this particular question:

wat's the point of living in this world?

i mean, i study, sleep, play, read storybooks...and this is just like a daily routine.

our life will certainly come to an end one day, yeah?

nothing ever changes except when

- travelling overseas or perhaps all over the world.

- surprises here? there?

forget abt this. let's continue!

firsty, guilty for not blogging for a long time.

im busy wif stuffs like studying, exams, projects etc.

many things happened. i hv pics to post

but blogger's screwed.

look forward to my next post kays?

it'll come soon...

today date: 17 August 2009

HELLO! (: ^^ :D :) :] HELLOHELLOHELLOHELLO! :D

tdy sch was normal.

had Chinese common test tdy O:

MATHS HOMEWORK! WHOOOO!

common tests are coming, hoping to pass.

this wed is my maths common test alr. sighs*

fast hor? time passes soooooo fast!

need to start studying and stop playing computer games alr.

later was much better when i went home.

i bathed, changed, rest for awhile.

then went to friends hse as she need a listening ear. haha 

she is happy nw! cos got me mah :X

went home around 5 plus.

made friends wif U PPL!

im so bored lehzcxzczxczxcz. 

nw chatting wif no one...my sister says she is feeling not well just nw, takecare Pretty Sister! ♥

that's all for tdy's post O:

got to go!!!

BBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEE